Clueless birthday

I'm sad because they are having a tough time to understand the things i thought them in class. But I am more frustrated of the fact that they didnt even make the effort to try the questions. Well a few of them managed to do the homework, but others, majority of the class was ternganga and menunggu-nunggu jawapan ku for the tutorial questions that I gave. Kalu gua sendiri jwb soalan gua, it defeats the purpose dear.

How u deal with student yg extraaaa lazy? Extra homework? Extra punishment? Or maybe I should rendam in kolam ikan like that schoolteacher from swk did to her students. Too much workload for them now?? Sheeesshh.....I was once a student bah, dont bluff me...

I was so angry but too tired to argue with them hence I just said this "no one can help u understand better than urself. I can only give u guidelines okay but not to the extend of giving u everything from a-z. The rest is up to u. U choose. Klu tak tau buat least they can do is to come to me. If they make any effort I wouldnt be this upset.

I'm just so pissed off this morning...owh help! *rolled eyes*

p/s: Today is my b'day! Should I remind him? Hahahaha..*spank me*

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Just come back from the school meeting...which is once every 1.5 years. Boss had anoounced he will be leaving soon, for good, for a better opportunity. Good for him.... While the rest of us stayed here in anticipation of who'll be the next dean. I wonder...

They said u cannot apply for this and that because there is no budget for it. They too said, for that course u normally will not get a tutor/demo - no budget thing plus of the fact that u r teaching a single subject only. And now, they are begging u to request for tutor/demo as they have plenty of budget i.e. they have been scold for not being able to finish up the bugdet. *sigh*. Its almost the 7th week, and my supposedly tutors are already attached to someone else. Should I bother applying? Am I missing something here? One minute its A thing, the next its completely the other way around. Hmm...mental check jap *waras*

Now they beg u to go to conference/seminars/workshop also? The budget is plenty yes but the road to getting it seems like a rollercoaster ride. Or the path was blurry all this while.

Another good thing to note, they too are begging us to do our phd because it seems like nobody is interested in doing so. Truth is, everyone was still hooked up with seniority thing and it seems like this urban legend is affecting the whole school. Ntahla.. Now that they announce it loud and clear I was just wondering what will happen if suddenly everyone is so eager to go by next yr and the number applying for it is outrages, then perhaps its the time to say we should follow the seniority again.

Hmm...I dont know, perhaps today is not really my day despite being my b'day. Everything is sucks and it all should flow to the drains. Please. And I am still waiting for a simple wish from him - no pressie or even surprise - no that is not what i'm expecting - just the thought. Or perhaps there is smtg fishy there, of him pretending today to be no different than any other day. Hehe...Ohhhh gua sungguh blurrrr ari nih...

Okla...am definitely tired today...I just wanna go back and kiss my little darling. Her smile would be the greatest b'day gift ever! :) And another good point to note that my loan is finally approved. I'm getting a house soon...so excited!