my love

isnt it a wonder of how such a simple smile from a child can bring joy to ur life and melts away silly problems?? :)

of life lately

hubby told me the news earlier this morning that i'm getting another bon bon this month, the only different is this time around the amount is doubled than what i received last month. x happy lagi, spank me then. alhamdulillah. hehe.... must work dgn jayanya....kehkehkeh

my darling daughter turns 9 mths last week on thurs. she grew up so fast that mummy finds it so hard to catch up with her development so far. haha. now she knows how to waive her hand everytime i go out for work in the morning which is cute i think. makes it even harder to go the office, betul i telll u....urghh...i rather stay at home and play all day long with her. well, enough said, that'll only be materialized should hubby becomes a millionaire some day...ahh one fine day...one fine day....

anyhow, lecture was fine last week alhamdulillah despite my kuman size knowledge on thermodynamics. i know its undermining my own capability but heck lets face it, its the truth. so much so i decided not to be intermidated by the students, i tried my very best to deliver all the things i understood about the subject matter with the hope the students will appreciate the subject more than i did when i was a student. ahaks! haha... ya lor, i hope they become a better student than their sifu last time. x salah kan statement aku tuh. :P

went to this interior design outlet in likas yesterday. it costs more than rm10k to do the flooring(betul kah term aku tuh) of hubby's apartment. we have a new tenant there, but come to think of it, i think its not worth spending so much money if someone else is staying there kan. might as well keep the money for the house. if only, miss comet is alive i'll probably kidnap her and ask her to give my rm1.2 mil dream house in sulaman. ngee....

perfection and spending

Change your attitude towards life. Do not look for perfection in everything in life.

i got the above statement from Izreen which can be a good hypothesis to justify why i am always not quiet happy with most of the things i did. i look for perfection, too much that it makes everything seems to be complicated. sigh. 2 days ago i received another good news that instead of getting 270, i'll be receiving more students. the number of students registering for the course is now 360. and moi is not entitled for any tutor. tq-lah! and so i think, since now i have to work tripple harder, i should expand my spending horizon. ahaks! i am not really an it savvy neither am i a gadget freak armed with the latest info on the specs or technical know-how on most of the things. but since he loves it so much, i figured what the heck kan...:), so here goes...i hope u r happy with the pressie dear.

i'm also getting mom a new fridge this afternoon since the ones at home died on us few weeks ago. dah baiki pon mcm gitu2 jer, so i'd say its time for a new fridge. perhaps the 300L SHARP model that we saw in karamunsing would be more than enough. what did i get for myself? i just need a new mic for teaching. hmm...x tau la nak justify mic yg mcm mana, but i'm definitely not going to use that karaoke mic in the lecture hall. hehe..ntahla mcm buat konsert af lak klu pakai mic besar2 tuh..huhu...24 x 80 ft, double storey, intermediate, ujana kingfisher, 5 mins drive to work for 240k. Hmm...worth buying ka??

Bitching (u have been warned)

Why la why..some people can be so mean dlm diam2 ... lagi bahaya sbb sentiasa dalam maksud yg tersirat perbuatan dan kata2 tuh....

I wonder why did she let si kawan yg baru masuk keje lps abis study take over subjek yg dua2 takde good references. And she herself only has to repeat last semester punya subjek yg definitely dah ada complete notes and dia x pyhla nak take all the trouble to study mcm giler2 punya subjek tuh sbb dah penah ajar. And satu lagi subjek tuh, I already pass a complete notes and references (which is mine) to her so she doesnt have to trouble herself to find this and that everywhere. Oh mudahnya kan. And thats why she can take leave since last week di kala ramai antara kami huru hara buat notes these days. Jawapannya mudah, she already is in her comfort zone why must she trouble herself again.

Ntahla, I guess if she really wants to help dan berhati murni...she had probably offered herself to handle si kawan tuh punya subjek yg masih huru hara. So that si kawan tuh bulehla concentrate prepare utk subjek satu lagi....blerghhhh...hmm....i wonder jugak why si kawan tuh tak mintak subjek yg dah ada complete notes dari dia tuh so that her life would be much easier la kan...Yela when u are told to handle new subjects lagi seminggu nak bukak semester, a good notes from peers would save ur ass big time! trust me. tp ntahla maybe si kawan tuh segan sbb mereka berkawan baik, but hey if u r good friends indeed x kan la dia tuh sanggup biarkan si kawan menggelabah. Hmm...muka mcm nampak hantu jer si kawan tuh these days!

But then si kawan nih pon satu. Since I was able to provide her sedikit references and guidelines, she kept coming to me for everything when the person that has a bigger clue of what she'll be teaching is someone else. I had to tell her the she must do this from a, to b, to c and to the next thing.....Aiya....Dulu aku pon takdek sape nak ajar okay, they all campak jer syllabus and textbook dgn aku and expect miracle to happen. Even better, masa tuh dah minggu ketiga semester bukak and I just got married for a few days. Cuti honeymoon pon tak sempat ok, ohh sungguhla saya sangat hot bila ingat balik. Fuhh!!!! And si kawan nih pulak, guess what jumpa focal person pagi nih, tak tnya punya sebaliknya simpan soalan tuh and tanya gua yg tatau pape nih (hehehe...betul laaa). Ya la...sis, I dont have all the solutions to all ur probs okay. I still think ada batasannya jugak kan if u ask help from others..Yela kalau semua org dah tunjuk macammana nak buat or dah buatkan might as well u just goyang kaki and relax.....U'll learn things the hard way dear, just like i did.. just like i did. There wont be everybody to support ur back all the times, u must be able to stand on ur own. At this stage, u are how u lead your path. Konsep nya sekarang gaji mau manyak, kerija pon mau lebey la sikit kan..Along the way, make sure people tak take advantage on u la. Especially the so called 'best friends'. Ewah macam marah je bunyi nye gua nih...hehehe...ye memang.

Last week punya conversation at pan pac:

Her:Hmm...the next round i can take over ur class la. kak ****..
Me: Why not this coming semester?
Her:Ala tanakla (sengih2)....Eeeii takut. Next cycle can laa...
Me: Ye la...when the notes are already there, tutorials, exams questions, when everything is complete kan...(Aku dah x pedulik ini laser lebih tajam dr pedang starwars ka apa and even better aku dah sound dlm discussion aku punya department, in front of everybody)
Her: *stay still, blinking in disbelief*
Me: (Serves u right. I also dont care if u wear tudung sampai paras buku lali sekalipon, that doesnt justified the attitude....enough is enough...)

I tried to make ur life easier with the hope u can do the same for others too....but now?? I'm not saying this because I'm good or what, but it's just so frustrating dear. We are now trying to change the bad culture here but u just break the loop when something fresh and useful is introduced. I just hope that we can help each other escpecially the new ones, but what u did just defeat the whole purpose. And I am so sedih...Now everything is crystal clear, I can now distinguish between kawan or degawan....hahahahaha...

On slightly a happier note:

Weekend ari tuh I am so happy I tried at least 2 recipes courtesy of her. Hehe...nothing much just puding laici and fruit cake. Again, no pic...x sempat okay sudah kena wallopp dgn everyone before i managed utk selongkar cari kamera. Adish..:P

Ok, i better finish up chap 1 lecture notes. I am faaaarrrrrr behind. Gulp!