Al-Fatihah

My oh my, its already the end of January and I am still in disbelieve that another month has passed by. Its like yesterday we were all thinking of this year resolutions.

It is with great sadness that I share this news with u all. Our dearest friend, at the age of 27, Erwansyah Elyas passed away 2 days (10 Muharram 1428) ago due to car accident. This sudden lost has a great impact to us, me and hubby, as we were close friends since we were 13. All those sweet 14 years of companion will be treasured forever in our heart. He was indeed such a good friend, nice fella, and oh boy how I miss those cute grins of his. He was hubby bestest buddy, they are like brothers. His partner in crime and also kaki racing ‘motor kayuh’ bila balik sekolah. He was also an athletic guy and judging at those muscles and again that cute grins, girls would be chasing after him. Though, love was never his side I guess, BUT now I believe he has found the TRUE love. We are still at the stage of accepting the shocking news, and has learned that setiap kita ada perjanjian dgn yg Maha Esa. His time has come, so he has to fulfil it. In hope that, that dia akan ditempatkan di samping org2 beriman, dan sentiasa beroleh rahmat dariNya. He died while performing his duties, thus we prayed for Allah’s mercy for his spiritual journey ahead. Al-Fatihah, amin.

Well oh well, life goes on right? So back to me. What did I do today? Life consists of preparing the exam papers, final exam and midterm, program meeting (I hate taking minutes laaaa) and discussion with students. That’s about it – workwise la. Not so interesting heh, rather taxing I guess but then whats new. Moi cari makan so it’ll stick as routine. On a happier note, life at home gets better everyday. And I pray for that everyday. Dr. Fadzillah selalu pesan to always pray so that hari lebih baik dari semlm, hari ini lebih seronok dr semlm. I think its true, and alhamdulillah it works. Syuhada is growing up into a pretty young lady – well not quite yer la kan. Exaggerating here. Hehe, ya lor….me cant wait to have that Gilmore girls relationship with my li’il princess. :P

Ops almost 5 now. Just done with my meeting, haven’t pray yet. But sempat aje ber blog tuh…..aiyo…talk about time management…okla…till then…have a good rest at home, u’ll need it after that horrendous traffic…hehe….

meet my lil' princess

this is my first time posting a pix in here, never knew it could be this easy...hehe, maklumla tak reti sgt psl IT nih...so, I maybe a lil' bit late here, but its better late than never heh...here goes, presenting my lovely daughter, noorul syuhada born approximately 3 1/2 mth ago...hehehehe...told ya (hint: read my previous lines). this is her on her first day.. mind u, those cheeks alone is 1 kg each, contributing to her whooping 3.3 kilos birth weight. ahaks!

okie, now that i know how to do this, watch out for more piccies pretty soon...!! hehe..

p/s: at the time of writing this entry, mom is already on her way to kelantan for my beloved granma is unwell. she managed to catch the 10 am flight just now. hence, we had to send syuhada to mak long for care. takpela bucuk, soon nenek will come home kan... missing her already, its only a week since she got back from hajj...

late! again?

I woke up rather late today, so late that it was already terang benderang when I look at the curtain. OMG! And for that, my 9 am class had to be cancelled. And for that also, I need to find a suitable to replace it. Dang! More time, more work. Frankly speaking I wasn’t sure why did I wake up so late today. Not that I had to berjaga semlm, or did anything tiring enough for me to doze off for hrs. Usually, my routine starts at 5 in the morning. Urghh, today really sucks! Thought of bringing little ones to the clinic for her 3-mths immunisation, and guess what I left all the necessary documents at the office! *Slaps forehead..eh nah better slaps my face larr)… so that I wont forget next time.

Hubby is not in his best mood today, ah well so am I. Guess, we prolly need to take things seriously this time around, job-wise. For a little while, things have been quite disorganized and I think its about time to recheck again on what could be done to avoid unnecessary waste of time. Time management it is!

News from holyland. Abah rang again last nite and asked sis to prepare ikan ampap (local dish) and ikan bakar together with ulam2 (complemented with sambal belacan of course!) once they are back. Heheh, hmm...dah lama tak pekena sambal belacan, teringin la kan. InsyaAllah, they’ll be home this 16th. So, we’ll prolly have some kenduri kecik on that day. Yela since all the relatives will be coming to the house it is wise if we have some kenduri doa selamat. Kecik2 pon okla. Maybe after mom and dad had their rest, then only we’ll plan for another one.

Okay, am supposed to fill up the SKT form (wonder how will I perform heh??) and register myself with Escience if I were to apply for the Escience fund. But somehow I’m getting this failed registration over and over again. Napa ya?? Then, kemas sikit ofis yg dah tunggang langgang nih…

Have a nice weekend ya all! Be safe & be good k!!!

08.01.07

I miss my dear daughter, a LOT. I miss her infectious smile when she is full, her laugh (yes she can laugh now) and her bubbly talks (non-stop oh-kay unless she sleeps or she cries), and those yummilicious cheeks I so wanna bite, and the silky skin, her smells, I MISS COMPLETELY EVERYTHING about her. Mommy miss ur hugs la bucuk..Having her so close to me and kissing her gave me so much strength to face the hardest day that comes my way. Indeed, she has been such an angel that could lift up my spirit and her laughter is the best cure for a wounded heart. Insecurity should be far far away for me for I have a child to care for. Thus, not only I have to be strong but also must be able to stand up gain if I ever fall along the journey.

Starting my day with bad news isn’t really helping the Monday blues. Well, life goes on heh no matter how hard it is for me to swallow the facts but I still have to deal with it. My supposedly grant has been given to someone else during maternity leave (so unfair I’d say) and my long time application for the post of lecturer documents’ went missing in action when I asked for updates. I'm underpaid for 3 semesters already.What the heck?? I mean, give me a break I sent those documents like what, a year ago???? ptuii...And dont get me started on the EPW application. They even asked for the documents twice because they claimed that they didnt recieved any of them. Ada ka. I gave them by hand lagi okay. I feel like kicking somebody’s ass and slapping one’s face. Tapi tuhla masalahnya x tau nak marah kat sapa. Guess I’s so mad at myself for not taking action to prevent any of this, in advance. BUT, how am I supposed to know that it’ll end up like this?? Huh???

I’m better off finishing my lecture notes, have few things to settle afterwards. Oh yeah, abah called again last nite from mecca. They are doing fine except for the common flu, and coughing. Nevertheless, things went just as planned, and insyaAllah by Jan 16, they’ll be back, safe and sound. And they cant wait to “terkam” syuhada…..Hehehe…siapla atuk and nenek nanti syg, blhla cerita2 smpi pagi kan kan..kan….Huhu

I feel like going to the library this afternoon, okay me wanna borrow few books la..…am starting a new habit now. Hopefully berjaya la this year. I wanna read before I doze off every night. Even a single page, its better than nothing right. OKAY, wish me luck on my new mission. Stay cute ya all!!!!

2007

i hate this blog! my long entry lost in space. aku marah nih!!! hisshhhs...