hi everyone! (though i dun think anybody reads my entry...hehe). well, its only the 3rd day since i got back to work after my long maternity leave but i'm feeling sick and tired of work already. hehe, yes i'm that bad. the thing is, i miss my baby so much. yupp, u got that right i miss her loads!...yeah, alhamdulillah, i safely delivered our little munchkin on the 12th of oct, at 1.12 p.m by c-section due to poor progress.
giving birth was not quite smooth sailing i'd say, it was painful yess...i admit it, but it was all worth it. betul jugak org ckp, tgk baby lupa semua sakit. smoe recaps on the day itself. blood stained appeared on the 11th oct at 4 am, masa nak sahur. but i thought it was normal, nothing serious because i didnt feel any pain at all so i waited for more signs. no contractions, no nothing during the day and i sempat lagi buat kuih raya. hehe, but time dekat2 bukak puasa, i started to feel uncomfortable and pain was coming in and out. we decided to go the hospital and i was dilated to 1 cm only, and i was admitted at 8.30 pm the same day. my battle begun. i was in a terribble pain came midnight. was crying quite badly and i soon asked hubby to call the dr. but still i was only 3 cm dilated. alamak, it feels like ages nak bukak from 1 cm to another. last2 tuh, ckp x tahan sgt dgn dr, i was sent to labor room at 2 p.m. hmmm....i hate to say this, but i was left for 2 hrs+ without anybody attending me. the nurses were supposed to check on me as soon as i was transferred there but funny thing is nobody came. aperda...nak mengamuk ade jugak. soon after a doctor came, and because i was still at 3 cm, they had to induce the labor. pecahkan ketuban, mind sakit teramat la time dorg buat nih but still no progress. at 5 am, i was such in a horrible pain. they gave me suntikan utk tahan sakit and i went to sleep for a while, and some gas apa ntah...hubby came in x lama lepas tuh. at 6 a.m., i was very exhausted. berapa kali tambah air taula, they keep poking my hand with those needles. sometimes air tuh abis, my blood came out masuk dlm tube going backwards. finally, i asked for epidural, but to my dissappointment, they told me dr pakar bius takde, she'll come to work at 9 am. aduila...hospital apa nih...yes, i was so angry. hehe....rasa nak belasah je nurse. luckily, dr dtg awal sikit. then after she gave me the shot, i was feeling much better. hmm...mcm tuh pulak rasanya kena suntik dgn epidural. seram ade gak, coz cucuk kat belakang.
at 12 noon, i was only at 4 cm. can u imagine, dr told me baby dah start berak which is not a good sign. then, i was shivering like mad, due to the side effect of epidural. whith trembling mouth, i asked for a c-section because i couldnt take it anymore. yes, was really exhausted after 16 hrs enduring the pain. dr suggested that i should wait for another 2 hrs, but i said no. finally at 1.12 p.m., she was born. they told my hubby that normally a patient would wake up 4 hhrs after surgery, but i was awake 1/2 hr after the surgery. probably eager to see my baby.hehehehe....the first thing i asked for when i woke up was my baby. i only remembered flashes of lights and sounds of people talking before i finally unconcious for the surgery.
but, whatever it is...alhamdulillah...setinggi2 kesyukuran ke hadrat Ilahi. semuanya selamat. exactly at 1.12 p.m, 12th oct 2006 (19 ramadhan) noorul syuhada syukry is finally here. she weighs a whooping 3.3 kilos despite her small frame mommy (i'm barely 5 ft, 42 kgs). hehe..she's perfect from top to bottom, very chubby and looks like a japanese doll when i first set my eyes on her. she's so adorable i wanna bite her cheeks. ma, abah, and hubby were the first to see her. hmm...again, the pain was all worthwhile. no pain no gain right?? :) so to all, soon to be mommies out there, dont be afraid, there's pain involved yes, but there's more joy to come. trust me ok. sentiasa berdoa semoga di permudahkan segalanya. aminn... me cant wait for adik syuhada pulakla...hahaha...
cant wait to go home to my lovely daughter. so, have a great weekend ya all....
