Clueless birthday

I'm sad because they are having a tough time to understand the things i thought them in class. But I am more frustrated of the fact that they didnt even make the effort to try the questions. Well a few of them managed to do the homework, but others, majority of the class was ternganga and menunggu-nunggu jawapan ku for the tutorial questions that I gave. Kalu gua sendiri jwb soalan gua, it defeats the purpose dear.

How u deal with student yg extraaaa lazy? Extra homework? Extra punishment? Or maybe I should rendam in kolam ikan like that schoolteacher from swk did to her students. Too much workload for them now?? Sheeesshh.....I was once a student bah, dont bluff me...

I was so angry but too tired to argue with them hence I just said this "no one can help u understand better than urself. I can only give u guidelines okay but not to the extend of giving u everything from a-z. The rest is up to u. U choose. Klu tak tau buat least they can do is to come to me. If they make any effort I wouldnt be this upset.

I'm just so pissed off this morning...owh help! *rolled eyes*

p/s: Today is my b'day! Should I remind him? Hahahaha..*spank me*

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Just come back from the school meeting...which is once every 1.5 years. Boss had anoounced he will be leaving soon, for good, for a better opportunity. Good for him.... While the rest of us stayed here in anticipation of who'll be the next dean. I wonder...

They said u cannot apply for this and that because there is no budget for it. They too said, for that course u normally will not get a tutor/demo - no budget thing plus of the fact that u r teaching a single subject only. And now, they are begging u to request for tutor/demo as they have plenty of budget i.e. they have been scold for not being able to finish up the bugdet. *sigh*. Its almost the 7th week, and my supposedly tutors are already attached to someone else. Should I bother applying? Am I missing something here? One minute its A thing, the next its completely the other way around. Hmm...mental check jap *waras*

Now they beg u to go to conference/seminars/workshop also? The budget is plenty yes but the road to getting it seems like a rollercoaster ride. Or the path was blurry all this while.

Another good thing to note, they too are begging us to do our phd because it seems like nobody is interested in doing so. Truth is, everyone was still hooked up with seniority thing and it seems like this urban legend is affecting the whole school. Ntahla.. Now that they announce it loud and clear I was just wondering what will happen if suddenly everyone is so eager to go by next yr and the number applying for it is outrages, then perhaps its the time to say we should follow the seniority again.

Hmm...I dont know, perhaps today is not really my day despite being my b'day. Everything is sucks and it all should flow to the drains. Please. And I am still waiting for a simple wish from him - no pressie or even surprise - no that is not what i'm expecting - just the thought. Or perhaps there is smtg fishy there, of him pretending today to be no different than any other day. Hehe...Ohhhh gua sungguh blurrrr ari nih...

Okla...am definitely tired today...I just wanna go back and kiss my little darling. Her smile would be the greatest b'day gift ever! :) And another good point to note that my loan is finally approved. I'm getting a house soon...so excited!

cant wait to go home

This cute lil gal greets us with a huge smile on her face and screams in joy soon as we arrived from work, everyday w/out fail. She'll be running as fast as she can (in her walker of course) towards us and try to reach out. And I definitely cannot resist myself from picking her up and kissing her and gomol2 some more. Tgk tuh siap berliur-liur lagi...

A student came to see me this morning asking for my help to check on the extra questions she tried from the book. Fine. But when I actually looked at the script, hmm...she had indeed tried all of them - amounting 100+ questions. Mak aihh.. I seriously dont want to dissappoint her and tell her that I cant check every answer in detail. Because honestly, I am very happy and terharu that she actually had the will to do extra work. And I mean EXTRA work. What do I do now? *scratch head* It would take me few days or week maybe to come up with the solution.

Other important thing to note also that I feel proud of the fact she has given her very best so far to learn this subject. Not many bumiputera sabahan or any female student have come to her standard. Her english is good, no wait..fantastic I must say and she carries herself with confidence and she's humble all the times. She would turn out great over the years. A good asset to the potential company. Why? She's one hot babe too...Hahahaha

15 mins to 6 pm. Time to go home. Have few weddings to attend this weekend. Cant wait. I love weddings. Planning to bake muffin to bring to the office next week. Dorang suda tanya2 tuh dr last week lagi....:p *slaps forehead* Am now waiting for hubby at the office, he has a match (bola la apa lagi) this afternoon. After this, we'll be rushing to menggatal for futsal at 7 pm. Adeih deih... x penat ke?? EPL pon dah start kan so the tv remote is out of sight all the times. I wonder!

$$$

I bought 2 nice skirts yesterday but couldnt stop feel guilty about purchasing them till today. Cost me rm80 for both and I am promoting a new local brand here called "sayang". Haha, seriously!.. Well, I cant afford those branded stuffs ( Not quite familiar with the brand also, thus no name mentioned here hahaha ...sah orang kampung gua nih!)

I know some people might tag me as stingy or whatnot, but its the truth the last time I bought a skirt was about a year plus ago, when I was pregnant. So it seems like forever for anyone to see me walking around with new outfit at the office. I couldnt care less jugakla at first but honestly after sometimes I do get bored and tired of seeing myself clad in the same wardrobe.

Thus, I finally have the guts to buy them yesterday. Hehe. I know this may sound weird, but yes when it comes to buying things for myself I'll think like a zillion times before finally deciding to buy any item. Its like so many things came to my head before I finally said yes - things like what about the bills, car, or in case of anything that foresee me to use extra amount of cash? What will happened? Is there anyone that will help u?? The thing is, I've learnt quite a good lesson few years back, that when it comes to money, u r a better saviour to urself. No one will ever come forward and offers u the biggest help u can get when u desperately need one. Kan? Tapi, whenever they needed help, they'll be lining up in front of ur door. Time tuh, musuh pon boleh jadi bestest buddy. Shucks!

I know, I'm worrying too much. But hey, its the fact isnt it. I cant just make decision in a blink of an eye should I fancy a new branded outfit or the latest gadget in town. The chunks of the monthly $$$$ are already well distributed kan. Sheeesshhh... Am not complaining, its just sometimes what needs to be done is far important than ur own needs. This just rationalizing my own thoughts perhaps, that money should be spend wisely. I also think that spending money that isnt urs (ie: credit cards) wholeheartedly will lead to instant satisfaction but in the long run u are creating a huge mess in the end. Just my 2 cents! If ever money grows on tree, then there'll be a different set of stories la kan. Or else, this shall be it. Titik.

Work work work

I can clearly hear my neighbour sings an old malay song now, hmm..such a classical way to do ur work eh. But heck, wish I can be that happy finishing the routines. I can if I really want to, its just a matter of will kan…

Time check. 5.05 p.m. Darn. I’m proud to say that I only managed to complete 10% of the lecture notes today. Yeah, sucks. With so many things coming up, I feel time is running away from me. Another excuse. *spank me!*

Oh yeah, I almost hit boss of my boss of my boss of my boss’s car this morning as I was rushing mad to the office, simply because I was 25 mins late to work. Hiks! Luckily nothing happened. Had I hit the car, it’ll be another hit and run case. Hahaha…For the life of me, I’ll be running down the hill like tak cukup tanah punya. :P

The bank call just now telling me that they cannot proceed with the loan because I AM NOT a bumiputera sabahan. Meanwhile at workplace, I'm denied the rights to get housing allowance because I am told that I AM bumiputera sabahan. I am so confused here? So what am I actually?? When it comes to giving kah-ching, so many reasonings have to be made. *sigh*

Okay too many stressful entries here, should stop whining. Moving on to a lighter note. Some updates on baby. She now have 4 cute gigi but I must warn u, they are sharp okay! Few days ago, I was deeply in pain I screamed so loud and she got panicked then cried. Poor baby. Hehe, what to do…sakit maa…

She loves banana so much that it is so okay to replace the bubur nasi with banana sahaja. Oh anakku! Makan byk2 sikit ok. I don’t know, maybe she just wanna lose some weight so she can learn to walk much faster. Ye ke?? See that tembam pipi?? Ahaks!

Stress

I feel like crying.

I seriously need help!

Few hours looking at that book gave me massive headache and confusion and I have 2 days left to prepare the lecture note for Friday class. * Sigh *

How can I help them learn when I, myself am struggling so hard to understand the next chapter?

How la….