hello 2010!

oh dearest blog, sorry for neglecting u. blame it on mukabuku, haha. however i am yet to master few arts using it but i cant seem to find the time though. lame excuse i know.

december kicks in quietly and now leaving us so soon. thought it was like 3 weeks ago, we were in the midst of getting the grades for students moderated and finalized. reluctantly (ha ha dont tell my boss) went to kudat for 2 day seminar and took a week off afterwards. back this week only to find out that the external examiner decided to visit us the next day, 2 wks ahead of schedule. it was quite a whirlwind for the past 2 days, for us at least.

hmm.. a month away and now they are back for a fresh semester, technically they should be here by this week, but i couldnt find a soul yet. look at the school foyer..empty, quiet.. spooky?

yeah.. :) heyy.. lecture should start this week i supposed? the kids had decided to start the following week even before i made any announcement. ah well, saves me time. zaman dah berubah kan. semua dah online so everything is a just a click away. gone are the days where u have to wait all day long for registration. nangis tau zaman dulu2 nak register. thats why kita dulu a week before classes start dah sibuk balik uni. these days they couldnt care less. hmm.. nanti cikgu buat quiz on first class baru tau nih.. hehe

wow, today is the last day of 2009, wonder what have i accomplished so far. nothing close to top of the world, but alhamdulillah life has been great and wonderful this yr. new addition to the family, got my confirmation, completed a grant, applied new ones, and many more. family matters and work life have been very good, though nothing being planned properly (so typical of me huh!) but thank God everything turned out alright. :) of course there are good times, and bad times too. sadly i had to say no to melbourne, i am devastated but i'm keeping my spirit high and hope that someday new opportunities will come. i just need to keep going and be happy with life. thats what matters. i cant please everyone and similarly i dont expect others to meet all my expectations. for this yr, i couldn't have everything in my wish list of course hehe, but hey i can always carry forward to next year? kan hubby?? kan kan...ha ha

23rd dec marked the 4th yr of our marriage. wow, so fast. imagine! 4 yrs and 3 kids (soon). wow, that is even faster than a rocket to the moon. ha ha ha. yeah, true.. the comments i received so far. well, i have to admit the news really surprised me initially but then again as i began to realize his presence, i can only say one word. alhamdulillah that is. we are worried a little bit on how we are going to handle 3 small kids all at the same time, but we are happy nonetheless. management is the key word. we just need to work out a good plan. well everything is in progress i must say. the eac panels really hate that in progress word. now i think i know how they feel. haha.

its a gift from Him and i'm grateful and blessed. i have friends who have been yearning for kids after many years of marriage, but failed after many attempts. that really puts my feet on the ground. and reminds me to always be thankful. a friend did mention to me to hug her so tight so i can infect her with a baby. sweet, but that remark almost made me cry. hope her time will come, soon.

relationship? some say that hubby and i are good friends. i can say yes to that. he is a good friend, lover, listener, and wonderful hubby over the last 4 yrs. i hope he feels the same way for me too, though most of the times i know i'm sucks at being wifey and mommy. hehehe.. but it is so untrue that our marriage is ideal where life is as colorful and pretty as a rainbow. we fought on several occasions, i cried and many silly things happened, but thats it. u learn something out of it, and make up and forgive and go crazy for each other all over again. there is always something new to learn everyday for as long as we remember that neither us or our spouse are perfect. 3 rules- make mistake, learn and change for the better. i bet in 30 yrs to come, i am still clueless of his favorite drink. he always told me this "buat ja la apa2, abg x kisah.. semua pon abg minum", whenever i asked him what he wanted to drink after we reached home from work. bagus kan, senang keje saya. 3 in 1 kan byk.. hahaha...

new dreams and hope fro next yr of course. good health and a better future for the family. hope hubby will get what he has been working so hard over the last few mths, really soon. and i can start concentrating on my dreams too. have a great year ahead everyone, may all ur wishes come true! keep on praying, stay focus and be happy. happy new year! :)

need something to kick off the new yr??

why not try this homemade ~ fresh from the oven ~ carrot cheese muffin!! nak?? hehe..

new purse? hehe, u bet. lookong got me this from the land of the lion.. :)

fluffy pancakes for new yr's brekkie?? hmm.. why not, top with honey + butter.. yummeh!..

new sumandak in da hse??? hehe.. she is mine for the time being, if u are interested please come after 20 yrs, and make sure u made ur bookings.. hahahaha... kidding!

and last but not least, big smile from us! have a wonderful year!

family day & competition

the canteen people asked my whereabouts just now. obviously, there are 2 things here. i am definitely a regular and i ate like a cow. ha ha ha. haih, they thought i had gone into labor because i was missing for 3 days. ha ha ha, i must have morphed into an elephant this time around! i gained another 4 kilos over the last 3 wks. now thats about 10 kilos since i knew i'm expecting. oh dear. hmmm.. now is that a good thing or a bad thing? seriously, babe u need to do something!!!!

anyways just to share some kodak moments with my girls. this is taken few weeks ago. now that the marking thingy is so yesterday, i just need to squeeze in some time to upload this before eac, obe or kudat gets in between or before i totally forgotten about it. enjoy pics taken during her kindie family day@sabah state library and coloring competition@karamunsing!

she calls it air fishball, we call it air laici...

pretty zinta? oh well i got it from my mama... hehe
she was not in the dancing competition, but the moment the song was aired, she just jumped into the crowd. obviously, a li'il excited...oh anakku!

ah she took part in this one, my girl turns to purple butterfly flipping her wings and dancing all over..
the princess butterfly in purple, but opss... the wings senget.. hehe

look at what we won!!! pearl cafe tuh i won 3rd prize acara ibu2 tiup belon.. layan saja beb!!! haha, terer takk...semput mau tau la...

and my girl got this! hehe.. next competition is mengenal abjad, while barbaris, the principal came to me and whispered, yg nih syuhada x pyh masukla, dia sudah dapat tadi... hahahaha... buyuk kan cikgu dia..

not qualified as x cukup umur, but her teacher wanted her to join this competition too.. so, tipu guna nama org lain, patutla masa register terkial2 saya cari nama anak saya..nasib x kedapatan..
enjoying tea break with friends..

mama, i won koko krunch this time around!!! kidding.. tuh all the kids got it, but biasala..dia kan super excited..

ok, i worked so hard just now, ada is very very verrrryyyy hungry... can i have this , this, this, this and this... this too papa... oh probably u just need to buy the whole restaurant for me.. easier kan!!! saves u time...

u might be wondering what happened to the kid sis..napa gbr si kakak ja kan, unfair nih kan...well, here she is...presenting the korean girl though her mommy & daddy are more towards kaling... nah, of course she is ours.. she got my nose..tak caya cuba ukur..hehehe

my sweet darling at almost 11 mths now.. her milestone is great as of now.. learns to babble few words mama most of the times (yeahhh!!), keen on walking too... and such a big eater!!!

cakkkkk!!!

craving

I cant wait to step on that scale again, knowing that I must have gained at least another 4 kilos this month. Walking up the stairs to my office, is a big deal these days, why? I am only 6 mths all along. He he.. Must be this habits of peeping in the fridge when everyone else is asleep at night.

This morning I woke up craving for this! So its purple & coach therefore please spank me..

...I couldn't be getting my mind straight these days, must be the exam papers, I get tired and annoyed simply by looking at it. Still halfway marking it, it takes me like forever.

Boss has been asking the same question every time he sees me. Are u okay with the workshop coming up this dec? As if wanting to be sure that I will come for it, and no matter how many times that I assured him that I will be coming, he will definitely ask me again and again. I can see he is nervous and calm at the same time. Weird. Well, I feel nothing. Sure, we will anticipate more work to be done, but at the back of my mind, I do hope we can get the crew moving, all of them. Else, the ship will sink even though we have jack sparrow leading us.

Oh yeah, I have to admit that I did spend 10 mins in the morning marking the papers, and lost interest since 3 hrs ago. He he, bad.. really bad. hmm.. I am thinking about the kids already. Both with mom since last night. Miss the girls so much and hoping that we'll go home much faster today so I can play with them. Tee - heee.. means I will probably start marking again on sunday. Stress aku nih!!

Till then..Salam Aidil Adha from us..:)

wasted

wasted 3 hrs attending a meeting when I should be marking the papers. hmm, didnt know why bother getting involved when I am not sure of what kind of contributions are needed for the haywire committee. and still, got blame for it. can i resign?

bff

bff? tonnes of stories to share. but very little time to do it. maths paper is driving me up to the wall, arrrghhh!!!! coffee is my best friend for the time being.

be back soon...

Sarapan Di Mana?

Hmm.. usually di rumah.. :)

Hubby likes homecook meal, so dari makan malam sampaila ke sarapan, he would still prefer to have it at home. Tapi minum kedai kopi jam 10 dgn kawan tuh lain cerita la kan. So, dalam kelam kabut pagi2 tuh, siap2 baju kerja, laundry, beg nursery syuhada, siram anak2 i kat luar tuh kena pandai2 curi masa la prepare breakfast. Usually something simple, and quick. Ya la kan, ask any working mommies out there, taula alkisah menarik nafas di pagi hari mengejar itu ini, sometimes u wish u were an octopus so u'll have extra hand to do everything kan! :)

For dinner, klu balik 7.30 pon i will still cook. But dont ask me, menu apa as definitely yg simple2 saja as tgk rakyat2 semua dah bergelisahan keluar masuk dapur. He he..usually, balik lambat (oops not because saya nih rajin berkerja extended hrs ya), but because hubby selalu ja ada aktiviti di petang hari, either training hockey or futsal, x pon bola. Sometimes he would call at 5.30 and tell me, baru mau start meeting. What? admin people pon sometimes have crazy working hrs. Jadi tunggu jela, and so the little girl pon have to wait a little longer for us. Kesian kan, but what to do. Ingat mau ambil dulu cik puan kecil kita and pick up hubby later, but aku nih rabun malam so I always avoid driving at night.. This morning pon we pushed off early for work despite office is just 10 mins away, katanya ada bukak tender at 7.30.

Inila k, maksud saya menu yg simple2 for the past few days. U can cook in a jiffy, so no need recipe la kan. Aik, cekodok pisang pon ko mau resepi ke jah? kidding, hehe..Layannnnnnn... Sorry pictures taken dlm bekas bekal yg saya bawa.. hehe klasik kan saya, sometimes I prefer bawa bekal as makanan di kantin tuh saya tgk hari2 pon sama. Besides, I can pack some for my daughter too. Dulu2 ada buat bento for syuhada, but she cried looking at it, ketakutan probably. Hubby pon kata, eh ini dah mcm CMP pon ada, ala cikmatpoi rancangan ac dimana tu. Hehe, patahla semangat saya.

Btw, just last week someone asked me masa saya sibuk2 bawa syuhada ke ofis sbb demam, "ini anak kakak yg bungsu ya?"....so I answered politely, "tidak ini yang sulung"... bila balik bilik, then I realized I must have look like kakak2 yg dah ada anak 6 kali, OMG!...do I look that 'young'? ha hahhh... oh nooo!!!!!!

Sekian cerita hari ini. Now back to marking papers.. *ngantuknya!*

psstt... tapi yg jam 10 punya breakfast lain ya.. hehe... I gained 4 kilos over the last 3 weeks, tak caya?? me too!!!!!!!...

Demam

I have been a lousy worker for the past four days, datang lambat and the work has been pretty slow. I couldn't keep my mind straight when the girls are sick. Vomiting, diarrhea, and crying at nights. Penat! House is upside down, work is terrible. Its been almost a week now, 5 trips to the clinic and hosp too, and after the last doctor did the screening yesterday, I think I can finally smile a bit, Alhamdulillah the test was negative. And she is getting better now.

Day 1...


Day 3..pegi klinik Dr.Liza pula..happy ja kan rakyat jelata nih...


Hubby said, macam tourist dari korea ja si kecik nih... hehehe

Day 3 (monday).... dah start bawa pegi office, x sampai hati hantar nursery.

Day 3.. .. see, daddy's girl kan. hantu futsal bah dorang nih. so, we brought her to watch futsal so she feels ok sikit.


Day 6 (thursday).... getting better, but every 10 secs pon mau tanya cantikka lukisan dia.. so mama pon buat kerja sap sap sui la... he he


Opss, oh nooo!!!!!!! dah jangkit pula dgn yg sikecik.. hmm..

oh well. musim kali sekarang nih ramai demam, weather pon kejap panas kejap hujan maybe thats why lambat sembuh.. hopefully the girls will be alright soon. be strong and rajin2 makan ubat k....muahhhhss!!

random thoughts

Currently waiting for hubby to fetch me at the office. I couldn't get myself to do any work anymore, my mind just refuse to cooperate an hour ago. Enough for today perhaps. Well, will u be appreciated more if u do more? Yay? Nay?

We had presentation by methodology students this morning, interesting as it was something unrelated to our subjects. Its funny how I began to realized all this while I have been keeping my life trapped in a similar cocoon that I forgot that there are also different wonders to explore in this world.

Like what? Mukabuku maybe? Ha ha ha... I am getting the hang of this thing, strange how can I become an addict. oh I'm sure millions have been infected as well. So, this is what they have been doing heh? Hahaha... no offense, as I told you, I am a certified addict too. I am picking up, slowly :P

Syuhada is not well this morning, slightly feverish but I guess paracetamol will ease that away and I leave the daycare to handle that. I hate it when I had to go to work whenever the kids are not well (its presentation week this week I just had to come). It made me feel like a lousy mom who thinks money rules the world. I wish I can be like lorelai gilmore, selling coffee and pancakes every morning in a cozy cafe, catching up the latest gossip in town and by my girls' bff.

Maybe my girl had too much of this..
pictures taken during the kenduri kawin last week..

Ops hubby's here... Taaaa

Sad

Not a pleasant news to read this morning...

Jambatan runtuh di Kuala Dipang, 22 dikhuatiri hilang

27/10/2009 3:30am

IPOH 26 Okt. - Seramai 22 pelajar dikhuatiri hilang dalam satu kejadian jambatan runtuh berhampiran sekolah Kuala Dipang, Tapah dekat sini malam ini.

Berita mengenai kejadian itu disampaikan oleh Ahli Dewan Undangan Negeri (ADUN) Air Kuning, Datuk Shamsudin Abu Hassan kepada Menteri Besar, Datuk Seri Dr. Zambry Abd. Kadir malam ini.

Zambry dan para pegawainya kini dalam perjalanan ke tempat kejadian yang mengambil masa kira-kira sejam dari bandar raya ini.

Menurut sumber, para pelajar terbabit sedang berkhemah berhampiran tempat kejadian.– Utusan.

2-0

I couldn't help but smile when I saw hubby was munching cekodok pisang as fast as Sir Alex was chewing his gum. Te hee, such a tense night it was. I wasn't much of a football fan, that my knowledge on it is worse beyond words. I thought Owen was playing for his old team last night. He he he.. And hubby had this intense glare on me when I said I think man u certainly has few old players. He came up with this term: golden players, they will never be too old to play. Ha ha. Ok ok, on second thought maybe I should just keep digging into this bowl of cekodok pisang.

The day when food rules my mind

I am having a mixed feelings over personal issue, nothing big really but it does get into my system once in awhile and thinking about it, makes me slightly unhappy. Just a little maybe, it feels like when you are putting too much salt into your food, dinner will be a bit salty, but u'll eat it anyway. There is this tiny discomfort, but over time it'll just disappear, so long as you know how to change it into a positive thinking.

A plate of nasi beriani for lunch seems like a good way of channeling ur thought heh? Especially when its nearing the midday. Oh how I wish..I tried the recipe from the new cook book received from hubby last weekend (dah tanya balik2 bila mau masak kan, so hentam saja la labu hehe). It turned out alright just that I need to put in more spice next time. But , but , but... Mr hubby had too many open hse for raya to attend that evening, he actually was too full when he reached home. I was angry of course when he decided to eat it for brekkie the next day. Ada ka..cis

But hubby had his way of consoling me...How can I say no to this? it will be nice if we have ice-cream and squeeze some choc on top of it. yum yum..

Jom masak..

Hubby asked what to get me at Kinokuniya, so I told him find those books from her (not sure if its available in kk)....Ha ha ha, so domestic of me lately kan. I dont know, saja ja..u can simply get the recipe from the net, but i guess since she is willing to share it for free, why not give her some credits so that she will have more inspiration to try on new recipe and share with us later, and write more books. And besides, there is something about flipping through pages of books rather than browsing the net kannn... real sikit feel dia.

I like her cook book, simple and easy to do. Clear instructions and guided with step-by-step pictures. Crucial, for beginners like me... ha ha ha. And hubby had pointed out which recipe i should try. Bah sabarla lookong, nanti2 yaa.. (Bila lah tuh? hehe)....

Anyways, it was ums open hse this morning. wow, plenty of food, lemang, satay, ketupat, rendang, mee kari and lots more... siap ada persembahan, meriah betulla and best... bertuah betul student2 ums nih. all through my uni years, x pernah kami kena treat mcm ni. bestla budak2 ni...

update:
baru balik dr menjenguk pigeon hole, ada 2 kerja suda menanti. 1 stack of papers for lab consumables dan meeting next wk. hmm.. interesting meeting next wk probably, pastinya mencari salah siapa bila more than rm1 milllion of maintenance budget belum terusik. mungkin yg di atas sudah tertnya smpi akhir thn belum abis lagi. hmm.. kita yg di bwh pon tertnya2 juga ttg apa yg sudah terjadi sebenarnya..tgu la babak yg seterusnya...uuuuu, mlm nih buleh layan nur kasih kan..

smile

Do you know what puts a smile on my face today?

I smiled when I saw few workers rearranged new trees at one corner of the corridor this morning. they are just lovely, how I wish I could steal one or two and bring it back home to add to my collections. just bought few lovely local breeds and most produced bright red and purple color flowers, so pretty and lovely to have. cost me rm35. cheap! and that makes me one happy bunny.

i have been telling hubby how nice it would be to have a small backyard garden, that said, i was hinting for us to move out from the apartment and find a place where i have more space for them. and we can add tomato, chili, and everything. see, so domestic of me these days ha ha.

i also smiled today when the student understood how to do double and triple integration, and they did ask a lot of questions. that gives me a taste of pleasure knowing that they do appreciate the lecture and keen to learn more, especially when the question comes from those weak students.

but sometimes i feel funny how i love and hate my job at the same time. i love teaching, learning, and do bit of csi work and share my thoughts with the students, but the past 2 weeks have been rough and got me thinking of whether i have made the right choice of becoming an academician. (psst.. i did a quiz on which career should i choose, and i still end up with lecturer... ha ha no excuse to update the resume)

grapevine has it that 5 more people will be leaving this place. dont ask me on who or when as i don't have details. dont u think its funny and getting worse day by day. i hope there will be time, when someone will realized that something is way wrong and get it fix.

oh well, another reason to smile today is we just got back from yatt's open hse. wow, she's a great cook (note: must learn how to cook lodeh too!). smpi tersandar kami kekenyangan ha ha. thanks yeah, for those yummy spread. i guess the 3rd open hse so far, its nearing the end of syawal, not so many open hse this yr i guess. ops, there's one tomorrow... he he, lupa suda janji pon dgn dorang...

hubby is coming home today.. its a perfect reason to smile.. kan?

of course, this puts a smile on my face too... :)

happy birthday dear!

she turns 3 today!

no fancy gift (yet). oh well, the daddy is on his way to the airport now attending a 3-day conference thus, no party today. weekend was filled with convo duty and classes to attend hence just a small family gathering for a quick birthday on saturday night. poor girl, hmm..

anyhow, she's happy that everyone was there to celebrate her day, and thrilled with the minnie mouse cake by her (sori no pic yet, will update later). the choc mud cake is so yummy. 3 kg ok, and there was like 5 of us only. kembung la makan kek, ha ha. kek dah tempah awal, but last2 minute kena cancel the party. sedih kan.

nevermind la, papa dia sudah janji mau beli hadiah byk2 di kl nanti. dont forget gift for mama dia juga k. banyak-banyak juga tau. sempat lagi tuh. u bet. haha..

so, here's the girl in action. kan dah besar, so bolehla lipat kain sendiri...

dan yg ni juga...

see, mama...dah syiap!!! andai?? ..(jawapan standard mama...pandaaiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!)

sambil2 tuh, buleh try stokin papa juga..
yay!!!!... dah abis lipat...

sekrg bulehla jadi raksasa dalam bakul nih...aaaaoorrghhh!!!!...

pening layan dia nih, tapi best juga sekali sekala. happy 3rd birthday darling. we love u very much. semoga jadi anak solehah,dimurah kan rezeki, dan diberkati dan sentiasa dilindungi Allah swt. dengar ckp mama and papa selalu k, rajin2 pegi sekolah.

5S

While everyone is busy with convo and everything, I got myself occupied with cleaning up the room and sorting the files. The whole day ok, kalau ikut byk kerja, mmg byk but if I were to wait for me to finish up all the task baru nak kemas, alamat bertimbun la sampah sarap nih. Hmm.. kaedah byk kertas2 dan dokumen yang pelbagai itu, mcm dah patut jadi profesor nih. Ha ha, tuhla yg kawan2 selalu ckp bila masuk bilik saya, I always apologize for my messy room, but they told me ini bilik org yg rajin kerja. Ha ha, menikam kalbu tuh. Bah, anggaplah komen tuh sbg motivasi kan...

What got me into doing this? Well, 2 days ago I received a gentle note from the office that my annual leave balance is -12 days. What? Setahu saya, baru 18 hari saya cuti smpi Okt nih. Maka, berpeluhla juga saya mencari forms cuti yg telah diisi dari awal tahun in the piles of papers di dalam bilik utk semakan semula baki cuti. Lucky that I stacked all the forms di satu tempat ja. I found out also ada 5 hari yg saya sepatutnya cuti but saya lupa and bekerja. Wahhh, I really need a major 5s right? Hehe... So, hasilnya...


Kemas file yg baris kedua dan ketiga ja, yg lain2 gitu ja.. Now happier, at least berumahtangga juga kertas2 yg byk di atas meja tuh.


Tapi meja masih bersepah2 lagi, maybe afterwards, dah letih. Hehe

The only hiasan kat bilik, fountain kecil and mini bonsai tipu. Dan radio sekali sekala temankan saya. Graduation pic also, tu pon dah tenggelam dengan buku kan. Ha ha..Bukan apa, kagum dgn bilik kawan2 yg ada bunga bunga-an, dan mini snack bar lagi. cermin besar utk bersiap pon ada... :) Wah, I do need to make some face lift to this corner....

Nih pon tatau mana nak letak, dah penuh bilik dgn kertas2 assignment, lab reports dan exam paper students. Jadi landfill sudah bilik nih....Need to think where should I put this, yg dlm almari pon byk juga...hmmm